madah berhelah

Di dalam sendu yang teramat
Kulihat senja yang berlabuh
Dan malam pun melepas layar
Kaku aku di sini
Bersama harapan terbakar

Siapa di antara kita
Yang dulu memula sengketa
Pastinya diriku bagimu
Yang engkau anggap punca
Biarpun ketara engkau yang mula

Bukan sekali kau suarakan
Kebimbangan pada cintaku
Kau tak mampu
Bersendirian tanpaku
Itu semua lembut lidah manis madah
Penuh helah yang pastinya
Aku adalah sandaran
Bagai hilang semangat diri
Keyakinanku..terlebur kini..

Sesungguhnya kau ku sanjung tinggi
Bererti hanya kau di hati
Sayangnya kejernihan cinta
Yang mencermin setia
kau keruhkan warnanya..

rock ke hape!

woooohoooo! thankz to elfie rafie, i just found out that my uncle's disbanded rock band, Odyssey is featured in the recently launched Warna album which i-totally-forget-the-album-name.. hehe.. im so proud of u cik sani! haha gua caya sama lu! ok kental.. and my dad told me stories about this band, how it is formed, how one of the members married his cousin yada yada yada..

ni zaman rock babe.. lu & gua belum dilahirkan lagi atau dalam proses pembentukan.. hehe.. zaman seluar tapered, rambut mcm sarang tebuan, bercermin mata hitam, rantai sampai ke kaki, jacket step cool dan yang sewaktu dengannya.

that's my uncle, top left hand corner

the featured song, Masih Ada in the album

yipeeee

my current mood right now: hip hip hoooray! the deadline for the individual assignment ACF 322 has been extended till next wednesday which means more time to produce a quality piece of work..

watched the annual drama production titled sangkar harapan.. two thumbs up (plus the toe thumbs) to the whole production crew.. One of the few productions that I enjoyed watching due to the strong theme and plot that the drama hopes to convey.. Abstract, a tinge of humour, sarcasm, realities of life, music, fantasy add colours to the drama.. And most importantly, about woman vs the patriarcial society, the role of teacher-the juggle between idealism & realism and the concept of beauty.. I have to say that the drama sparks off questions in me - Who am I? and whats my role in this society?

oh ya! my takeaway from the drama is the song bagaikan puteri.. kental & kekek song i know..
how fantasy and reality can never co-exist.. sometimes in our life we dream of a perfect and ideal life but when reality sets in, it vanishes all those dreams away.. but i strongly believe that hard work & attitude are essential to keep us going..

enjoy the song! *put yor hands up in the air and sing along*

Tapi sayang
Hanyalah impian
Bulan tak bisa tumbuh ditaman
Dan bila mentari datang
Pulanglah segala kenyataan

Jika dunia
Aku yang punya
Akan ku dirikan
Sebuah syurga
Malam tanpa siang
Untuk ku bermimpi

Sepanjang masa
Tanpa kecewa
Bertemankan bintang yang setia
Bagaikan puteri
Kisah khayalan
Yang hidupnya suci dan sempurna

Tapi sayang
Hanyalah impian
Bulan tak bisa tumbuh ditaman
Dan bila mentari datang
Pulanglah segala kenyataan

Jika dunia
Aku yang punya
Akan kuhiaskan
Sepasang sayap
Putih dan berseri
Untukku kemudi

merely words

my current hobby right now: observe, reflect & think.. ya.. i know such a boring thing to do.. i dont know why but as the age 23 began to engulf me, im beginning to see the real world..

one issue that sparks my interest is about people and words.. i feel that nowadays words are plentiful.. the flood of careless n cheap words bombards everywhere.. no no.. dont get me wrong.. im not implying that its better to be silent and meditate..the real art of conversation i believe is the actions that accompany the words and not merely vomitting the words.. everyone can talk but not everyone can speak as Plato once said "Wise man talk because they have something to say ; fools , because they have to say something."

Relationship.. Aha! another interesting issue to talk about.. and hence thats the reason for the attached picture.. im moving on, oh yes finally but sometimes i do doubt and question what lies ahead of me esp after yesterday's incident.. Guess im too accustomed to this single life..

assignments n exams awaiting.. yikeeeeeees

zero

Currently with ariel peterpan *burp* trying to finish up some work.. Work has been piling up but the motivation level seems to be fading away.. Rehab anyone?

Red

Ku belayar di lautan
Tidak bertepian
Sesekali disedarkan
Ombak Yang Mendatang

meltssssss

ok fine.. im like the last person on this planet to go head over heals over korean/jap boybands but i dont care! haha love love =)

half empty or half full

U know u mean nothing when he chose her over u on that special day

Sidenote: school has strated and im loving my timetable.. yipee! holidays haf been awesome.. too much fun & tralalalala..
a new year, new life perspective, and meeting new people =)

party yeah!

♥ ♥♥ ♥

Time to party after examz! wohoooooooooooo =)

penantian

For one of the modules.. =)

Amidst the stress n tons of work

Just leave

If you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

antara merpati dan sang bayu

Andai esok aku menjadi tanah, sudikah engkau menjadi bunga menghiasi dadaku?

=)

salim oh salim

An interesting shoutout from one of my 16 year old exstudent on facebook:
Fhateenie Efron: Boy & Girl can NEVER be friends. They might fall in LOVE one day. 5 hours ago

Well, I have the strong urge to comment on her status but better not coz i was scared of the oh so negative comments if i were to reply like, "merepek siak comment cikgu ni" or "kental sey cikgu" yada yada.. so i rather comment here rather than fb! lol pengecut sey shaheeda

anyways, I have to agree with her to a small tiny minute extent.. the word "never" is an absolute word u see, so yar.. cheh.. mcm paham.. its true that there is a tendency to be attracted to your close friends of the opposite sex if there is something special/unique about her/him that u are comfortable with.. but however, i believe thats all are just a spur of the moment..i believe its not love, its just crush/attracted/like/comfortable.. to fall in love and to be in love is another different level already.. its very difficult to bring that level of friendship/closeness to another level as lovers.. there will be certainly a degree of awkwardness-uneasiness-shyness if that is to happen.. and i imagine myself falling in love with my old & close buddies of mine like firdaus & nizam.. kekek ke hape! haha.. nah.. i rather be frens though.. well, as for me, im easily attracted-like-love-crush-fall for those who are not even my friends.. i bet they dont even know i exist like ehem ehem ahak ahak.. ok.. whats written above are purely my views and opinions dan takde kene mengene dengan yang hidup atau yang mati yar.. but but but i dont mind falling in love with this sec sch teacher of mine, mr salim, the one who inspires me to become what I am today =)

and speaking of him.. was invited to visit his two storey executive mansionette for hari raya.. his house is like an art museum, i was like woww wahh nice when he showed me around his house..but nevertheless my takeaway is his stories and advices of being a teacher.. Its not a piece of cake job, mind you.. at how racism, bitching and favouritism is prevalent. i guess his secret is hard work + ego + strong character..

A few pathetic pictures for ur viewing pleasure

Addicted

Can someone sing this song to me pretty please? =)

Life's pretty good.. blessed to be surrounded by lovely people.. till then, do savour the few remaining days of Ramadhan..

yes you

I hope you are listening to this...

Im so tired of being here Suppressed by all my childish fears And if you have to leave I wish that you would just leave 'Cause your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal This pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears And I've held your hand through all of these years But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me by your resonating light Now I'm bound by the life you left behind Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal This pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears And I've held your hand through all of these years But you still have all of me

And I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone But though you're still with me I've been alone all along

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears And I've held your hand through all of these years But you still have all of me, me, me

happy for you!

Im so glad that you get over it so quickly and move on. Its so heartwarming to see the smile and happiness back in your life. Dont ever give up and keep on trying. Above all, I wish you joy and love. =D


Sidetrack: This year father's day without the parents.. Cool? Anywayz, can the holidays be prolonged pretty please.. So many things to do and so many darlings to meet up.. Tee-hee

Season of love

If you're happy and you know it, clap your hands

clap clap
If you're happy and you know it, clap your hands
clap clap
If you're happy and you know it, then your face will surely show it
If you're happy and you know it, clap your hands.
clap clap

I remembered singing this song (in malay) with my primary 1 kids donkey years ago when we were doing the topic on feelings.. A song that describe my current feeling coz i just bought this this this this

Sony Cybershot DSC-T90

ok ok, no big deal for some of you but it burnt a gigantic hole in my pocket and yak, speaking of saving up for my next 2 years in nie.. Whatever it is, i dont mind spending on something that makes me happy! weeeeee

A few random shots taken right after the purchase

Isz with his whatever look and yunus with his apa-apalah shaheeda look, considering how fickle mided I am. I kept changing my mind like 629353820 times between this Sony Cybershot T-90 and Canon IXUS 100 IS, and finally decided to settle on Sony

Yunus is obviously happy to have his pic taken

the mess

smileeeeeee
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Attended two weddings last week, Lin's and Dzuhri's.. Sadly, I did not manage to capture any pics from the first wedding coz i was late for the second one.. I even left my cupcake souvenir from Lin's wedding at Siti's handbag! lol.. Nevertheless, a few pic from Dzuhri & Norimah wedding

red and black theme... my fav colour

the gorgeous gorgeous bridal dais

they actually serve King's ice cream for dessert

i love the deco on the table, especially this.. a vase of red roses in a bird's cage.. The bride is akin to the red roses and the groom is like the bird's cage, where marriage locks them together.. =)

cake cutting ceremony

me & pretty azrin!

Dreamfall performing a number of songs for the guests..

Pengantin number 1: Yunus & Ellia

Pengantin number 2 : Isz & Azrin

and finally a group pic!

This holiday is really a season of love.. One after another, my frenz are getting either married--engaged--attached--crazy in love--patching up.. While im still leading this ya-ya papaya life like an old maid! lol im not complaining or anything, i do enjoy this single life but once in a while, it does hit me at how love between two souls does bring joy and happiness =)

Love is...

Love is....

To laugh
To fight
To sing
To dance
To rejoice
To hurt
To trust

To sacrifice
To fight for
To die for
and
To believe


Loving the holiday sooo much! Will have a proper update about my genting/kl trip with beloved classmatez and other overdue outings if im not lazy yar.. Still contemplating if I shud go to the medan trip. Shud I? nah.. no more money in the kitty.. As for now, lets enjoy the holiday people! Lets go!

Breathe Slow

I respect every decision of yours

I'm running out of patients

'Cos I can't believe what the hell

I'm hearing

And speaking of hell

It don't compare to this heat

That I am feeling

I love you too much

It shows

All my emotions go

Out of control

Good for you bad for me

When I can hardly see

From the tears that flow oh woah

Can't forget to breathe slow

Count from one to ten

With my eyes closed

Cos ladies take it in

And get compoh-oh-oh

Before I lose it get compoh-oh-oh

I am gunna breathe slow

Count from one to ten

With my eyes closed

'Cos ladies take it in

no more cha cha cha, now is the CHAllenge

i hate it i hate i hate it when this indonesian-celebrity-tak-menjadi lecturer of mine gave an assignment of 2500 words essay that is due in a weeks time.. and the question is super "short" mind you..

anywayz, been staying in skol till the clock strikes 12 midnight to complete the childrens book.. hope to complete the whole book by tmr.. cant wait cant wait..

Photos courtesy of feeza and my di penghujung nyawa N82.. teeehee

Letz get it started yeah! Lets get it started in here..

the whole canteen is ours for the nite yea

the galz! as u can see, im the only one who pose so elegantly in front of the camera

woohoo! thankz to my cousin, syikin, for drawing these!

of colours and water

Presenting my grp main character, kiki(?!)

And our neighbour's, haikal

Food and music to accompany us

Group pic!