madah berhelah

Di dalam sendu yang teramat
Kulihat senja yang berlabuh
Dan malam pun melepas layar
Kaku aku di sini
Bersama harapan terbakar

Siapa di antara kita
Yang dulu memula sengketa
Pastinya diriku bagimu
Yang engkau anggap punca
Biarpun ketara engkau yang mula

Bukan sekali kau suarakan
Kebimbangan pada cintaku
Kau tak mampu
Bersendirian tanpaku
Itu semua lembut lidah manis madah
Penuh helah yang pastinya
Aku adalah sandaran
Bagai hilang semangat diri
Keyakinanku..terlebur kini..

Sesungguhnya kau ku sanjung tinggi
Bererti hanya kau di hati
Sayangnya kejernihan cinta
Yang mencermin setia
kau keruhkan warnanya..

rock ke hape!

woooohoooo! thankz to elfie rafie, i just found out that my uncle's disbanded rock band, Odyssey is featured in the recently launched Warna album which i-totally-forget-the-album-name.. hehe.. im so proud of u cik sani! haha gua caya sama lu! ok kental.. and my dad told me stories about this band, how it is formed, how one of the members married his cousin yada yada yada..

ni zaman rock babe.. lu & gua belum dilahirkan lagi atau dalam proses pembentukan.. hehe.. zaman seluar tapered, rambut mcm sarang tebuan, bercermin mata hitam, rantai sampai ke kaki, jacket step cool dan yang sewaktu dengannya.

that's my uncle, top left hand corner

the featured song, Masih Ada in the album

yipeeee

my current mood right now: hip hip hoooray! the deadline for the individual assignment ACF 322 has been extended till next wednesday which means more time to produce a quality piece of work..

watched the annual drama production titled sangkar harapan.. two thumbs up (plus the toe thumbs) to the whole production crew.. One of the few productions that I enjoyed watching due to the strong theme and plot that the drama hopes to convey.. Abstract, a tinge of humour, sarcasm, realities of life, music, fantasy add colours to the drama.. And most importantly, about woman vs the patriarcial society, the role of teacher-the juggle between idealism & realism and the concept of beauty.. I have to say that the drama sparks off questions in me - Who am I? and whats my role in this society?

oh ya! my takeaway from the drama is the song bagaikan puteri.. kental & kekek song i know..
how fantasy and reality can never co-exist.. sometimes in our life we dream of a perfect and ideal life but when reality sets in, it vanishes all those dreams away.. but i strongly believe that hard work & attitude are essential to keep us going..

enjoy the song! *put yor hands up in the air and sing along*

Tapi sayang
Hanyalah impian
Bulan tak bisa tumbuh ditaman
Dan bila mentari datang
Pulanglah segala kenyataan

Jika dunia
Aku yang punya
Akan ku dirikan
Sebuah syurga
Malam tanpa siang
Untuk ku bermimpi

Sepanjang masa
Tanpa kecewa
Bertemankan bintang yang setia
Bagaikan puteri
Kisah khayalan
Yang hidupnya suci dan sempurna

Tapi sayang
Hanyalah impian
Bulan tak bisa tumbuh ditaman
Dan bila mentari datang
Pulanglah segala kenyataan

Jika dunia
Aku yang punya
Akan kuhiaskan
Sepasang sayap
Putih dan berseri
Untukku kemudi

merely words

my current hobby right now: observe, reflect & think.. ya.. i know such a boring thing to do.. i dont know why but as the age 23 began to engulf me, im beginning to see the real world..

one issue that sparks my interest is about people and words.. i feel that nowadays words are plentiful.. the flood of careless n cheap words bombards everywhere.. no no.. dont get me wrong.. im not implying that its better to be silent and meditate..the real art of conversation i believe is the actions that accompany the words and not merely vomitting the words.. everyone can talk but not everyone can speak as Plato once said "Wise man talk because they have something to say ; fools , because they have to say something."

Relationship.. Aha! another interesting issue to talk about.. and hence thats the reason for the attached picture.. im moving on, oh yes finally but sometimes i do doubt and question what lies ahead of me esp after yesterday's incident.. Guess im too accustomed to this single life..

assignments n exams awaiting.. yikeeeeeees

zero

Currently with ariel peterpan *burp* trying to finish up some work.. Work has been piling up but the motivation level seems to be fading away.. Rehab anyone?

Red

Ku belayar di lautan
Tidak bertepian
Sesekali disedarkan
Ombak Yang Mendatang

meltssssss

ok fine.. im like the last person on this planet to go head over heals over korean/jap boybands but i dont care! haha love love =)

half empty or half full

U know u mean nothing when he chose her over u on that special day

Sidenote: school has strated and im loving my timetable.. yipee! holidays haf been awesome.. too much fun & tralalalala..
a new year, new life perspective, and meeting new people =)

party yeah!

♥ ♥♥ ♥

Time to party after examz! wohoooooooooooo =)

penantian

For one of the modules.. =)

Amidst the stress n tons of work

Just leave

If you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

antara merpati dan sang bayu

Andai esok aku menjadi tanah, sudikah engkau menjadi bunga menghiasi dadaku?

=)

salim oh salim

An interesting shoutout from one of my 16 year old exstudent on facebook:
Fhateenie Efron: Boy & Girl can NEVER be friends. They might fall in LOVE one day. 5 hours ago

Well, I have the strong urge to comment on her status but better not coz i was scared of the oh so negative comments if i were to reply like, "merepek siak comment cikgu ni" or "kental sey cikgu" yada yada.. so i rather comment here rather than fb! lol pengecut sey shaheeda

anyways, I have to agree with her to a small tiny minute extent.. the word "never" is an absolute word u see, so yar.. cheh.. mcm paham.. its true that there is a tendency to be attracted to your close friends of the opposite sex if there is something special/unique about her/him that u are comfortable with.. but however, i believe thats all are just a spur of the moment..i believe its not love, its just crush/attracted/like/comfortable.. to fall in love and to be in love is another different level already.. its very difficult to bring that level of friendship/closeness to another level as lovers.. there will be certainly a degree of awkwardness-uneasiness-shyness if that is to happen.. and i imagine myself falling in love with my old & close buddies of mine like firdaus & nizam.. kekek ke hape! haha.. nah.. i rather be frens though.. well, as for me, im easily attracted-like-love-crush-fall for those who are not even my friends.. i bet they dont even know i exist like ehem ehem ahak ahak.. ok.. whats written above are purely my views and opinions dan takde kene mengene dengan yang hidup atau yang mati yar.. but but but i dont mind falling in love with this sec sch teacher of mine, mr salim, the one who inspires me to become what I am today =)

and speaking of him.. was invited to visit his two storey executive mansionette for hari raya.. his house is like an art museum, i was like woww wahh nice when he showed me around his house..but nevertheless my takeaway is his stories and advices of being a teacher.. Its not a piece of cake job, mind you.. at how racism, bitching and favouritism is prevalent. i guess his secret is hard work + ego + strong character..

A few pathetic pictures for ur viewing pleasure

Addicted

Can someone sing this song to me pretty please? =)

Life's pretty good.. blessed to be surrounded by lovely people.. till then, do savour the few remaining days of Ramadhan..